Moon 45 degree Saturn reminiscent of the Confederate must overcome the lack of confidence and that is why you hesitate to contact, chat with people. The way to make it easier to talk is to have lots of knowledge in your head, and to have the knowledge to contact the wise or simply read the book.
Do you feel comfortable walking beside you as the only person who knows how to “feel good”? Get rid of that negative intention and come back to being a positive energy source so that everyone will like being around you.
When you are young, you can live without much money, but when you are old you can not live without money. So, just save yourself money to prepare for your old life.